Closing an opening

"If this is my gate to meet with all of this and I have found this gate. These gates have been opened and I have met with all this, however, the fact of being a little different, not as I expected before. It all started to bother, and I know it must be end.

This is only a gate, and I never could open it before and I should have shut it, shut it downbecause if it continues to open, I'm sure this will be a very painful thing. I'll close this gate,although this rusty iron may be very difficult to close. By all means I can do. Because I'm sure, I'll be an end to what had been before I begin, though sometimes the effort to end it takes energy and feeling more than ever when I open this gate. "   Bayu Wicaksono, 16 yo