Without stars are longstanding

I'm sitting here, on the land where I grew up and lived this long. I do not know what I'm thinking right now, I started to look at myself. Shadow has always been with me all the time. I was silent for a moment, staring at my face in the mirror. My face in the mirror reflects what I have done, I looked straight at my eyes in the mirror and it looked sharp eyes behind me, sharper than gaze into those eyes. As if my mind wants to say something to me, rather wanted to warn me about what I was doing. I was silent, stunned and silent. Defeated looks a shadow. I bowed ashamed ponder what I have done so far. I realized I had too many stupid useless, my time to keep going and at times can be called by Him. "Look what you're going to spend the rest of your time with useless? Live only once and are you going to waste? Lot of people out there whose fate worse" said my reflection in the mirror. I must not waste any time, I have to change to be better and more useful. Because why would I live if I'm just wasting my time with useless and accumulating sin, I had to use the rest of my time as possible. I step forward with my feet away from the mirror, I'll prove that I can